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[May. 22nd, 2009|11:55 pm] |
And so here the story goes...
I was out with my friends and happened that we were using the computer. I managed to chance upon Yuan's notes, and it really made me think a lot. Not to mention, reading the shack too. I think it's a really great book but it has quite difficult analogy about the Trinity and stuff, but it really touched me a lot. Okay, so as I was saying, after reading it, I realized that at times, I'm not who I really think I am. And sometimes I feel that I'm a hypocrite especially when teaching CLAY. It's like telling people, you know that you can DEFINITELY put your trust & faith in Him as God has already plan our route for us, so why worry? Yes, I do believe that in theory, we all agree with this statement. But however, how many of us actually can put it in to practice? It's like, yeah, I'll put my entire trust & faith in Him, but can't I just worry for just a while more? Furthermore, how many of us actually go to God first when problems arises. Well, I definitely don't. I would just sink into my sadness, and think that it's all over for me before actually realizing that there's God!
As I was feeling extremely tired, I closed my eyes. And during that short period, something spoke to me. And whatever that was in Yuan's notes, keep on flashing in my mind. At that point of time, I felt super guilty in not putting my total trust & faith in Him. I really felt like crying and crying, but I didn't, so I just teared. Suddenly, something asked me to "let go". I was like, let go of what? My fears? And I guess, it's not an easy task to let go, but then again, having faith means you're able to do it.
I was once asked, "If we've doubts in our life, do we still have faith?" It's in human nature to have doubts in our life, but because of FAITH, you're able to continue your walk in your life, though it's full of uncertainty. Throughout this year or also, I think I've more uncertainties, fears, struggles that I ever have. But nevertheless, God never fail to prove that He is always there for me. Whenever it is at the least unexpected moments of my life, God will be there to guide me and show me the correct way.
To us, everything may come at the wrong time, wrong moment. But to God, his timing is always perfect. So yeah. So, at the end of each day, if you feel depress, demoralized, I believe that it's good to really think through your whole day and see what are the things that you can be thankful for. Cos, ultimately, we are receiving God's blessings. So yeah.
Living unloved is like clipping a bird's wings and removing it's ability to fly. This Love, is God's love for us. So, don't act like the whole world has fallen and there's no way out. Haha. Cos God's love surpass more than anything else in this world. And because of that, we're able to survive in this world, and to love people for who they really are. Yup.
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